Hei,
ciao everyone. Today I feel really lazy. Yesterday I felt really lazy. The day before yesterday I felt really lazy. When was the last time I set foot in the gym (laaast Fridayyyy uhhhhhmmmmm!!!!)
The worse element is the guilt feeling.
I am a Buddhist: I can't feel guilt. Right, but I am paying the gym and I am not going everyday as planned!
There is a battle between me and myself. Myself and me.
I want to lose weight, I want to get fit.
I keep seeing gorgeus clothes I want to buy and could never wear. Not until I lost 50 or 60 extra kilos! Don't ask me how many stones, please do your calculations, surely you must be better than me in maths.
The thing is: the only class I really love is tomorrow and I cannot make it because I will have a buddhist meeting in my house.
Ok I always chant that I will loose some weight while chanting Nam-myoho-renge-kyo too. The thing is: chanting Nam-myoho-renge-kyo alone, without taking the required action will not give me the result I want: getting back to "normal" by my birthday -the 23rd of April.
So to get some courage and inspiration I started reading other people's blogs...wow!!!
I am feeling such a feilure now!
There are big ladies out there running marathons and taking part in competitions!!!
I struggle to hide myself in the yoga class while suffocating myself in a shoulderstand with a far too big pair of knockers...litterally they knock me down!!!
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