Too much trust in one doctor

Well, today it's hard....I am fighting with the feeling of having been defeated.
In reality I am not as I am still fighting.
But I am feeling nevertheless very very upset.
I recently read a book: The Great Thyroid Scandal and How to Survive It by Dr. Barry Durrant-Peatfield. I got very sad and excited as a result.
Sad because apparently there are millions of people in the world with the same problem: undiagnosed thyroid malfunction. I recognised all the symthoms I had been suffering from for almost a decade without any cure and I felt rage.
I was also excited at the idea that there is somebody who knows and understands the problem.

As I am not working outside home at present, a friend offered to take some information on my behalf and came back with a great news: I could visit a researcher doctor who is specialized in Thyroid malfunctions in London.
I started to mentally and spiritually prepare for this great event in my life: healing was finally coming to my rescue.Yeee!!!
Yesterday, as I chanted for the happiness of my new doctor, I received a letter from the hospital asking me to attend a blood test appointment two days in the past...difficult, even with Buddhist extra powers ha ha.
Well I spoke to the secretary noticing that the doctor I asked to see was not working at the Hospital any longer. I was given a new name. I chanted a little. I was feeling a bit under the weather...
This morning as I went: super drama!!!
First of all I could not use my card as the pin number had been blocked.
Then as I eventually arrived to Euston Square, at the University College Hospital, I met a totally new doctor.
I am not even sure if he was a real doctor, or a student but one thing was clear: we didn't like each other instantly.
I don't remember when it was the last time I have been treated with so little respect as a patient and as a human being.
I was totally disappointed by the conversation we had, as his tone and affirmations were exactly what Dr. Barry Durrant-Peatfield describes so well in his book.
Many ideas came to my mind, including some negative ones.
I chose to chant first. And this is what I am going to do right now.
Nam-myoho-renge-kyo, Nam-myoho-renge-kyo, Nam-myoho-renge-kyo.
I am sure I will report my total victory here soon
xxx
Marybel